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poem: blue
By vrtualme | February 14, 2007
originally written on 04.23.98
I keep thinking blue
blue paint
blue sheets
blue glass
blue grass
feeling blue
I’ve got the blues
dixon is the blues
blue eyes
blue skies
blue sea
blue me
blue under my nails
blue lips
when randy was in london he saw a painting called “blue”. just a canvas painted blue. he claimed to hate this painting, but when he came back to america, all he could do was talk about it. I advised that art is not to like, but to effect. the artist succeeded.
blue plate special
blue planet
blue whale
blue suede shoes
blue black
I have an ugly bruise on my toe. I dropped a large piece of metal on my foot this last weekend.
still feeling blue
blue beard
blue bay
blue bird
told stacey today that the sexiest thing is to get a view of what’s in some one’s head. is that why I like writers? I feel a million miles from who I was. I miss randy, wonder if he went back to ireland, or where in the world he might be?
caught in my thoughts too much lately. feeling stuck, wanting what I can’t have as always, and making my own dramas. like jim always said about me, I’m not happy unless I’m unhappy. I wonder how he is? will call him the next time I’m in l.a. I miss l.a., santa monica, venice, marina del rey, holleywierd, the submarine races with jim. racing up/down little santa monica blvd on the back of josh’s bike at 3am before the helmet law. drunk nights on the beach. hanging at the “pick-me-up”. is it still there?
I miss the rocky horror picture show with angouxs! wonder if he’s still alive? still in sacramento? I miss living like I’d die tomorrow, but I had to stop or I’d die tomorrow. I miss feeling wanted, loved, sexy, desired. I miss being able to do a 12 hour shift after 2 hours sleep, I feel so old. I miss going to the movies with alex, and our late night talks. I miss westwood blvd & melrose. I miss the blue bus. I miss the effect I had on people. I miss being beautiful.
that’s why I’m blue.
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March 22nd, 2008 at 4:47 pm
yeah, so I’m trippin……check it out - was just thinkin’ ’bout Angouxs, in Sacramento, the other day…..we dated when I was 17 & he was 18…..what up? where is angouxs?
late
March 22nd, 2008 at 11:40 pm
he’s in hollywood. look for angus oblong.